Unnecessary Commitment to obey with all kinds of responsibility.
Most of the time, I think I should put aside my feelings and emotions and start being strict.
Jobs and workings to carry out isn't in my job scope actually.
I am involuntarily now taking up jobs and responsibilities for some god sake and it seem endless SHITS(Literally) continuously incoming.
Instead, I am not supposed to break my vow and supposed to focus on my priorities.
Feelings and Emotions do carry me away sometimes.
The Weak part of me of not showing my true color to someone I care.
but shutting myself up in own room and put on earphone listening loud song.
(I don't usually listen loud music for people who know me well)
By the way, no one should ever care about me as I am not mentioning a word and taking it all myself.
Wondering if that is the rightful reason to be faking around my smiles and even laugh about it.
I am laughing for looking at some people who do harm to me mentally. HAHA
Is that true that the lesser I care about people surrounding me,
I would be happier without picking up the harsh ignorance and blames?
Yes. I admit that I generally doesn't really care about picking up ignorance and blames,
probably just because when it comes from people that pretty close to me and related in some sense, I do feel a bit here and there, based on the Psychologically Reactions that I realized on the people surrounding me.
I see those Cold-blooded Faces and Ignorance of people, that taken the warmth of heart of me.
Aside the Ignorance, still, I am being thankful for the hard times that I need to get through with Aids from fellow friends which I can put my trust on. I do feel them.
In this foreign land that we are supposed to be on our own survival, helpful friends are very helpful indeed.
Beside being thankful, I do feel some unnecessary friendship which kinda of Selfish that hurt a bit, I am absolutely alright to be alone and single for that.
Realistic Society out there do have these people. I am sure for that.
And I am too DUMB to be smart over it.
Thanks for teaching me a lesson AGAIN.
I have Emotions. Just the matter of I show it or hide it.
And should I releasing my temper on this person who close to me. (unnecessarily?)
I should be trying being selfish a bit.
Lesson Learnt.
Come on, Bulk up. Still a long way to carry on.
The Journey doesn't just end here.
Jin
Most of the time, I think I should put aside my feelings and emotions and start being strict.
Jobs and workings to carry out isn't in my job scope actually.
I am involuntarily now taking up jobs and responsibilities for some god sake and it seem endless SHITS(Literally) continuously incoming.
Instead, I am not supposed to break my vow and supposed to focus on my priorities.
Feelings and Emotions do carry me away sometimes.
The Weak part of me of not showing my true color to someone I care.
but shutting myself up in own room and put on earphone listening loud song.
(I don't usually listen loud music for people who know me well)
By the way, no one should ever care about me as I am not mentioning a word and taking it all myself.
Wondering if that is the rightful reason to be faking around my smiles and even laugh about it.
I am laughing for looking at some people who do harm to me mentally. HAHA
Is that true that the lesser I care about people surrounding me,
I would be happier without picking up the harsh ignorance and blames?
Yes. I admit that I generally doesn't really care about picking up ignorance and blames,
probably just because when it comes from people that pretty close to me and related in some sense, I do feel a bit here and there, based on the Psychologically Reactions that I realized on the people surrounding me.
I see those Cold-blooded Faces and Ignorance of people, that taken the warmth of heart of me.
Aside the Ignorance, still, I am being thankful for the hard times that I need to get through with Aids from fellow friends which I can put my trust on. I do feel them.
In this foreign land that we are supposed to be on our own survival, helpful friends are very helpful indeed.
Beside being thankful, I do feel some unnecessary friendship which kinda of Selfish that hurt a bit, I am absolutely alright to be alone and single for that.
Realistic Society out there do have these people. I am sure for that.
And I am too DUMB to be smart over it.
Thanks for teaching me a lesson AGAIN.
I have Emotions. Just the matter of I show it or hide it.
And should I releasing my temper on this person who close to me. (unnecessarily?)
I should be trying being selfish a bit.
Lesson Learnt.
Come on, Bulk up. Still a long way to carry on.
The Journey doesn't just end here.
Jin